This year has been a trip. I found myself sitting on a park bench in Leslieville tonight, reminiscing. This time last year I was scared, I was lost and I was confused. I was in a job that felt like daily torture, I had a dream with no path laid out, and I was depressed. It was post Burning Man, which means I spent most of my evenings crying in hopes that someone would tell me what to do. My eyes were open, but I didn’t know what to do with this new found knowledge. I ran away, but learned quickly that you can’t run away from life.
After a year I sit here and think about that sad time in my life. Those feelings of confusion and lostness are still here, but they aren’t scary anymore. In fact, I welcome them; as it influences and promotes daily curiosity and playfulness. This constant feeling of confusion is mirrored by an extreme need to create something worthwhile. I look back and wish I could tell that lost girl that every feeling your body throws at you has a purpose, really.
In one year I took multiple trips for no reason other than that I could. I experienced what hitting rock bottom feels like, while simultaneously paying off a debt that I thought I would drown in for years. I spent time with family members that I never got a chance to know, and even helped heal my father with the magic of fruits and vegetables. I became a savvy business woman, an empathic human being, and a loving partner. It’s amazing how you learn to handle things like stress, just by experiencing a lot of it at once, and then you find yourself saying, “wow, that was easy…”
Think about your life over the past year. Compare where you were then, to where you are now. Are you happier? If not, why? Are you moving towards something you want? or away from something you don’t? Take some time today to appreciate you. You’re the only you, you’ve got!!!!!
I am still as busy as ever with almost NO time for anything, but I am very excited to see what the next 14 days of yoga will open up inside me. Yoga has a way of working the cobwebs out of you. You can follow along daily on the blog with point updates and how I CRUSH T over and over again!